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  He simply tooks her breath away

  Tall, dark and so achingly familiar. She didn’t understand the swift, melting attraction that drew her so to this man. It was as if past and present were superimposed in her mind, as if Adam Walsh were somehow playing both parts. His…and her beloved Jason’s.

  A wave of loneliness swooped down on Molly, piercing her heart like a red-hot dagger. She reached up and gripped the heart charm—the one Jason had given her—running her fingertip over the uneven edge.

  Sometimes she felt as if her own heart was just like this bit of jewelry. Broken. Always searching, longing for the perfect match, the missing piece that fit.

  But the other half of the charm was forever lost to her. As was Jason. All she had left were a gold heart severed in two, his picture on her nightstand, and her memories.

  And a date with a man named Adam Walsh, who would be knocking on her door any minute now.

  Dear Reader,

  You’re about to meet one of the most mysterious, magical men!

  Adam Walsh is many things, but none of them is ordinary, as Molly Kincade—and you—are about to find out.

  And neither are any of the heroes in American Romance’s ongoing series MORE THAN MEN. Whether their extraordinary powers enable them to grant you three wishes or live forever, their greatest power is that of seduction.

  We’re delighted at your enthusiastic response to the MORE THAN MEN stories and happy we can bring you more of what you want to read.

  So turn the page—and be seduced by Adam Walsh. It’s an experience you’ll never forget!

  Regards,

  Debra Matteucci

  Senior Editor & Editorial Coordinator

  Harlequin Books

  300 East 42nd Street

  New York, NY 10017

  Adam’s Kiss

  Mindy Neff

  To Mom and Dad,

  For teaching me to make choices and for always

  believing I’d make the right ones.

  I love you.

  Prologue

  Fear clutched at him, a fear unlike any he could recall. He knew who he was—an undercover agent, trained in lethal force with nerves steadier and colder than steel. Jason Adam North. ID number 425.

  So why the hell did he suddenly feel life-and-death panic? As if his cover had been blown and the business end of a .45-caliber Colt was cocked and ready at his temple?

  He opened his eyes slowly, wincing at the blinding light over the bed.

  A hospital bed?

  He shifted by slow degrees, relieved that no weapons were actually aimed at him.

  Beside him, slouched in a puce-colored upholstered chair, sat Frank Branigan. The closest thing to family Jason had.

  “Hey, buddy,” Frank said, rising with the fluid grace of a man trained to be light on his feet. “Glad to have you back with us.”

  “Where am I?” His vocal cords were raspy from disuse.

  “Radishire Hospital.”

  A government facility. Top secret. “Why?”

  “You were in an accident.”

  Hell of an understatement. His body felt as if it had been chewed up and spit out by a bone-crushing machine. No, not a machine, Jason remembered. A redwood the size of a skyscraper. Events filtered back in strange fragments. He’d been transporting some hush-hush package—volatile and dangerous. Not his usual job, but he’d been available, had had no reason to refuse the assignment. It was late. Raining. The wipers scraping against the windshield had barely been able to keep up with the sheets of water.

  A dog had darted in front of him. Punchy from lack of sleep, he’d jerked the wheel. The squeal of tires grabbing for traction on slick asphalt echoed in his brain. Once again he saw the steel-hard tendons of his forearms as he’d gripped the steering wheel in anticipation of impact.

  He remembered the sound, a split instant of deafening terror. Metal twisting, screaming—the sharp, horrible percussion of destruction as two powerful forces slammed together. Then silence. An eerie silence as if the entire universe had suddenly ground to a halt.

  “Don’t conk out on me again, son.” Frank Branigan’s face, sun weathered and etched with worry, finally came into clear focus. He was average in height, late fifties, with snow white hair. The age and hair color gave the appearance of an easygoing guy. More than one perp had found out the hard way that appearances could be deceiving.

  Frank had opted for early retirement from the Los Angeles Police Department vice squad and taken a position with the government. The same department that Jason had worked for since right after college. He and Frank had been a team, family, even though there were no blood ties.

  Uncomfortable lying flat on his back, Jason reached for the bed rails for leverage.

  An arc of electricity sparked from his fingertips. The railing bent as if it were a ribbon of pliable solder.

  “Holy smoke!” He snatched his hand back, his gaze shooting to Frank.

  God, how am I going to tell him?

  Frank’s mouth hadn’t moved, but Jason heard the words so clearly in his mind they might as well have been shouted.

  “Tell me what?”

  Frank appeared startled, but recovered quick enough. “I wondered about that. You’ve been in and out of consciousness. And each time you’ve answered a question that wasn’t asked.”

  “What the hell are you talking about?” Jason demanded, forgetting for the moment about the bed railings. “How long have I been here?”

  “A month.”

  “No way.” How could a person lose thirty days of his life and not know it?

  The image of soft, flowing red hair flashed through his mind. He’d kissed her goodbye, his palms cupping the smooth skin of her face. So tiny, so trusting. He’d told her he’d be gone three days, a week tops. She hadn’t asked him where he had to go, had only smiled and cautioned him to keep safe, her fingertips lightly touching the gold charm at her neck and the one at his. “I’ll be waiting,” she’d said.

  Jason felt his heart pump, felt his chest burn as if a raging fire were sweeping through his system. The monitor beside his bed screamed like a car alarm.

  “Molly.”

  “Who?” Frank asked, reaching over to press a button on the machine. The older man waved back a nurse who came running.

  But Jason just shook his head and glanced at the mangled bars on the hospital bed. “Are they making these things out of gum wrappers these days?”

  He had an idea he didn’t really want to hear the answer. Some sixth sense told him something was wrong, very wrong. His body didn’t feel like his own. It was as if his insides were shifting, distorting—humming as if he’d stumbled into an electromagnetic field.

  Frank hedged. “Maybe explanations ought to wait. You’ve been in a coma for almost a month. You should rest.”

  Especially before you get a look at your face.

  “What’s wrong with my face?” Jason asked. There was that slight jolt of surprise again. Jason ignored it. “Forget it. I’ll find out for myself.” He attempted to lever himself out of the bed, and his hand came up with a wad of the mattress. Good God, all he’d done was grip the thick material, and it had ripped off in a palm-sized chunk.

  He stared at the mass of polyester, then slowly raised his gaze. “Frank? Talk to me.”

  Frank retrieved a hand mirror, keeping it at his side. “You remember the package you were transporting?”

  “What about it?”

  “It was a top-secret thing, a capsule containing an experimental chemical substance—not ours,” Frank was quick to insert. “Evidently it leaked when your car impacted with the tree. When we found you, you were holding the box. We’re fairly certain a small dose penetrated your system, and it’s having some, uh, strange effects.”

>   “What kind of effects?”

  Frank glanced at the mangled bed rail.

  “You mean like giving me superhuman strength?”

  “Apparently.”

  Now that his senses were fully awake, Jason became aware of the awful chatter that filled his mind. A nurse was talking about the stud she’d gone out with last night. Medical terms flitted through his mind, dosage amounts of drugs he’d never even heard of. So why were his thoughts suddenly filled with terminology he knew nothing about? He felt Frank’s uncertainty hit him in a wave so powerful it was almost as if he were inside the other man’s body.

  “Tell me the rest, Frank. I’ve got the weirdest feeling I can read your mind, and that scares the hell out of me. Talk to me, damn it.”

  Frank looked extremely relieved when a bean pole of a man wearing a white lab coat and thick glasses breezed in. “Ah, the man of the hour. Jason, meet Malcolm Kitoczynski, one of the Bureau’s finest. Malcolm, see if you can explain the, er, phenomenon to our boy here.”

  Dr. Malcolm Kitoczynski studied monitors and slapped a pressure cuff on Jason’s arm. “It’s a little early for explanations. We—”

  “I don’t give a damn about your incomplete data and petri-dish experiments,” Jason snapped, yanking his arm out of the doctor’s hold. “Just give me as much as you’ve got.”

  The doctor’s sandy-blond hairline shifted as his brows arched. “I thought so.” He glanced at the bent bed rail and the wad of polyester Jason still had clenched in his fist. “Acute senses, musculature and sensory—”

  “Cut the mumbo jumbo and speak English,” Jason barked. “Just tell me why this is happening to me.”

  “Well, I’m not at liberty to discuss—”

  “Screw your liberty.”

  “Jason,” Frank warned. He looked at Kitoczynski. “He has a right to an explanation.”

  The doctor nodded. “The chemical that’s entered your system is acting like a neurotransmitter. It’s exciting your neurons, transmitting messages, firing electrical impulses from the brain—”

  Jason swore and gripped the lapel of the doctor’s lab coat. “You’re not in your lofty lab, and I’m not one of your highbrow intellectual partners. Break it down in chunks I can understand.”

  Kitoczynski’s hazel eyes seemed to glaze over as he focused inward, his computerlike brain obviously retrieving and discarding data, searching for a simplified theory Jason could relate to.

  The doctor adjusted his thick-lensed glasses. “Okay. Look at it this way. You put chemicals in your body, uppers, downers, hallucinogens. They do their work right at the synapses. Chemically they either facilitate or interfere with the neurotransmitters—”

  “That’s a little more information than I need,” Jason interrupted dryly, his patience hanging on by a thread. “In elementary language, this stuff is causing my brain to send weird signals to my muscles and the like?”

  “Basically. It’s similar to an adrenaline surge. Your fight-or-flight impulses are kicking in at a highly elevated rate.”

  “Will it go away?”

  “We need to do more studies. It could put unnecessary stress on your heart and—”

  “Kill me at the ripe old age of thirty-four,” Jason finished for him, his gut twisting. He’d stared death in the face many times, but had been too bold and cocky to give it more than a passing thought.

  Now that thought consumed him. And he didn’t like it.

  “Perhaps,” Malcolm agreed. “We’re still trying to break down the chemicals. Even then, we don’t know if we’ve got the whole formula.”

  “What are my odds?”

  “I’m not in a position to give odds. What’s happening in your brain defies our data to date. At this point, we’re theorizing that the pins in your shoulder might have been the catalyst that sparked the interaction. Believe me, we’re working around the clock to get you some answers. Now that you’re awake, though, maybe we can make better progress. We’ll want to study your musculatory abilities and your telepathy.”

  Jason swore and released his death grip on the wad of ticking he still held clenched in his fist.

  So they wanted to study the freak. One minute he’d been a man in love, an undercover government agent on the verge of resigning so he could have a normal life, a life with a very special woman. Now he might as well be a circus sideshow.

  “I think he’s had enough for now,” Frank said to the doctor. “Give him some time to digest.”

  The doctor nodded. As soon as he was out of the room, Jason reached out and snagged Frank’s arm. “Not so fast, Branigan. Let me see that mirror.”

  Frank shifted uncomfortably, his rubber-soled shoes squeaking against the drab tile floor. “I, uh, worked a little with the plastic surgeon. Your face was pretty messed up in the accident. Although I was marginally attached to the old mug, the new one’s not so bad.”

  The attempt at humor fell flat.

  In silence, Jason held out his hand. He was scared out of his mind, and that fear was about to develop into a full-blown rage.

  “Have a care,” Frank cautioned, holding the mirror just out of reach. “Don’t crush the damned thing.”

  Jason made a concentrated effort to gentle his grip as he accepted the mirror. So far so good. The plastic didn’t even dent. Slowly he brought the glass up.

  And stared in shock at his reflection.

  His eyes were still brown, a shade lighter than his hair and eyebrows. But that was all that remained the same. Every other feature had been sculpted to look like somebody else. Somebody he didn’t recognize.

  The reflection showed some bruises and some swelling.

  And a man he’d never seen before. A stranger.

  His world ground to a halt, floundering in an abyss of panic. It would only take the slightest move for that panic to engulf him. He felt the twisting, agonizing pain as his muscles tensed, fought the sensations he didn’t understand, the utter loss of control.

  The plastic frame cracked as his grip tightened.

  Frank snatched it away before it broke. “Hell, son. I thought I did a pretty good job picking out the features. There’ll be some scarring, but other than that, you look a little like one of those pretty-boy soapopera stars.”

  “I don’t watch soaps.”

  “You know what I mean.”

  From a purely analytical standpoint, he guessed the strange reflection was fairly handsome. But he didn’t want handsome. He wanted familiar. The face he’d lived with for all of his life.

  The face that Molly Kincade had fallen in love with.

  “Who knows I’m here?”

  Frank frowned, laid the mirror aside and picked up an object from the bedside stand. “Just the department heads and me. I wasn’t aware there was anyone else to notify.” He opened his palm. “We found this in your car. The chain was destroyed.”

  Jason felt as if the blood in his veins were on fire. He reached out, took the gold-heart charm and gently closed his fingers around it, taking great care not to mangle it as he’d done with the bed rail. And that’s when he made his decision.

  “I’ll give you a telephone number,” he said, swallowing heavily against the rasp of his vocal cords, picturing Molly as he’d last seen her, her lips swollen from his kisses, her cinnamon eyes still kindled with the passion of their lovemaking.

  She was pure and good and touched him in a way no other woman had. He hadn’t told anyone about her, not even Frank, his partner, the man who’d raised him like his own son. He’d wanted to bask in her sweetness, hoard her to himself for just a little longer, never realizing that a little longer would turn into forever.

  Because now he was a freak, a man sentenced to a solitary life of loneliness. No way could he saddle her with a man whose body and mind could turn on him like a monster.

  Molly deserved better than that. But he couldn’t let her believe he’d abandoned her. God, what must she be thinking? Did she wonder why he hadn’t called? Had she checked all the hospital
s? Jason had kept this part of his life from her. He’d told her he was in law enforcement. And Molly had never pried. She’d accepted him just as he was.

  Loved him.

  The ache in his chest grew, and it had nothing to do with the fresh scars across his rib cage that were pink and tender. Nor did the ache come from the bizarre reaction that charged his muscles and blood to a hyperphysical state.

  “How long will I be here?”

  Frank shrugged. “Couple of months for recuperation. Longer than that to study these, uh, you know.”

  “A freak under a microscope,” Jason said nastily.

  “You were going to give me a phone number.” Frank seemed more than ready to escape the room. “I can make contact with whoever you want, but this is sensitive stuff. You know that I won’t be able to give details and—”

  “Just tell her I’m dead.”

  Frank drew in a swift breath.

  “Look,” Jason said, suddenly feeling old and tired. He wanted to be left alone, alone with his thoughts and memories. Alone to map out the rest of his sorry life.

  “They’ve given me a new face. I want a new name to go with it. I’ll give the department eleven months—if I even make it that long. Add the month I’ve slept through, and that gives them a year. A year of my life, such as it is now. Then I want out.”

  “It’s not that easy—”

  “I want out.” His terse words cracked like the deadly report of a pistol shot, sharp and final.

  Frank nodded, his gray eyes filled with sadness and understanding. “I’ll see to it.”

  “Fine.” Jason reached for a pen on the bedside table. It bent like a piece of wet spaghetti in his grip. Disgusted, he stared at the pen, then looked up. He wasn’t a man to cry, hadn’t done so since his mom had left him on the steps of a county facility when he was five years old and never returned.